Coming Out of the Haze

Here I come....coming out of the haze...the "I just had a baby I can't think about anything else" haze. The haze that causes normal living to pause for a few months while your time, thoughts, and sleep are dominated by this new being. In my case, its has been compounded due to the fact that I just had two (wonderful) new beings. Well, in all honesty, I didn't just have them. They are 9 months old now. Yes, my stay in the haze was extended, but please don't judge. I had a difficult pregnancy including 3 months of bedrest in which I had to leave my job as an attorney. It didn't get any easier once the babies arrived either. I spent a few stressful weeks with the babies in the NICU only to come home and to struggle finding my footing taking care of and nursing two newborns while meeting the needs of my sweet, little three year old.

I have suceeded in some aspects. We have a decent routine. I make individual time for each of my kids. My house is relatively clean, and dinner (even if its less the gourmet) is served promptly at 5. And I have made a few valiant attempts to get out of the haze before now, but it was just...well...nice at times to slip back in. If I wanted to stay in my pjs one day, or be excused from an event, or ignore the dirty windows for a couple of days, or justify the extra 10 pounds I may or may not be carrying, I felt like I could. After all, I "just had babies."

Okay, I'll admit. Its time. No more excuses. I'm coming out of the haze...permanently. I'm determined. I'm going to get my life back. I'm going to start making dinners for my family every night, healthy ones that include something not from a box. I'm going to clean my house and keep it clean on a daily basis. I will not let laundry pile up. I'm going to teach my child before Seasame Street does. I'm going to get dressed...every morning.

I will no longer be just a dazed, new mom of twins. I will be a true, bonefide, professional homemaker!!!

(reflective pause and a realistic look around at the present state of my house)

okay, maybe an amateur homemaker. But I'm going to learn. I'm going to study. I'm going to improve. And you (all 0 of you, I'm sure) will be my witnesses.

Now, can anyone tell me what day it is?